I'm Wilma. Girl. No dragon tattoo. I love theatre, fashion, music that makes me orgasm and taking pictures. I have split myself between three places (London-Stockholm-Tallinn), but my current hub is Tallinn. Wherever my circus goes, there's always a party. If the party does end, I watch cat videos and blog about it all. Check out my yearly summaries below to get to know me a bit better. Header: Mandel Photography

If you have any questions: hemafruu@gmail.com.

Thursday, September 30, 2021

Wilma Circus in September 2021

 The gloomy times always start with dazzling celebrations. 
It was a good idea to get married on the 1st of September.

1st of September
This hot mama showered and brushed her teeth:

2nd of September
Suddenly having a strong dislike towards returning to hostile Tallinn.
Making up plans A, B & C how to dodge the bullet:

3rd of September
I still cannot believe how much labour is hyped up and how postpartum gets glossed over.
Every day is a struggle. I'm just lucky to have a chill kid (it was not always like this), 
so I can gather my thoughts:

4th of September
Where were we? Of course back in Tallinn, 
because cars, cars everywhere:

5th of September
Fred & Pebbles are making the fastest lap.
Šarik & I are pit stopping:

6th of September
Hoping that every random forest road takes us to lovely adventures
not to goblins or other evil creatures:

7th of September
Tries to look like a gangster
but actually goes to sleep at 8PM:

8th of September
My hair is massively falling out, so to hold them together I put them in a bun.
Next stop = super glue (or baldness):

9th of September
This is how I feel running with a small baby between back to back doctor appointments:

10th of September
Stains. Stains. Stains everywhere:

11th of September (daytime)
Wilma got an electric bicycle, Fred got his muscles and Pebbles got a royal carriage.
This is how 25 kilometres came with an ease:

11th of September (nighttime)
The advisory board meeting came together and decided that
we are still fabulous:

12th of September
There's hair in my food. There's hair in my buttcrack.
This is an emergency that only a hairdresser can resolve
(+ a little eye and tit surgery wouldn't do no harm):

13th of September
From massive hairloss to protective helmet:

14th of September
It was totally planned that my look embraces 
the new Scandinavian Vogue parcel:

15th of September
Japanese tourist in my living room:

16th of September
The secret MILF club:

17th of September
She eats. She sleeps. She poops.
And she is the star of the show:

18th of September
The essence of dull day captured by potato camera:

19th of September
My fashion inspiration? North Korea coordinated outfit:

20th of September
Trying to catch my youth by recreating the Rate.ee angles:

21st of September
The day I returned to the office, while Pebbles was 4 months old.
Let's now thinks about my decisions:

22nd of September
Waiting for my psychologist appointment.
Last scheduled meet up, now she is just a phone call or email away:

23rd of September
All alone with Pebbles, since Fred was at work and afterwards at theatre.
No drama, all chill. I survived and even tested Pebbles night lamp out for photography purposes:

24th of September
The day before Fred went to see the play, now it was my turn.
Doing things together is cancelled until further notice:

25th of September
"Sleep a lot beforehand"
"Soon you will have it very tough"
"You don't have time to eat nor live"
"You have to put your ego down"
First of all, keeping your comments to yourself is golden.
Secondly, I have not turned into a mother, I made motherhood something very me.
No need to put my life on pause, putting myself first is the best I could do for Pebbles:

26th of September
Autumn romance.
The air is getting colder, so the warm moisture of Šarik's poop condenses into 
tiny droplets of water that appear like a small, misty cloud. 

27th of September
The state of my tummy and nipples will never be the same,
but at least I'm trying to get that stiff body back to wearing jeans:

28th of September
My ordinary I-rather-wear-a-paperbag-and-let-my-personality-shine-through day

29th of September
There's a lot of time to kill
when Šarik has to pee on every leaf of the ground:

30th of September
Continuing the project "In the world of Destiny's Children be Beyonce"
 and introducing Pebbles strong Just do it role models:

Wake me up, when September ends.

Friday, September 03, 2021

Last days of summer in Haapsalu – 4 divorce-free years

There's this cute yellow house in Haapsalu full of annual traditions (2015, 2016, 2017, 2019, 2020).
There's this cute little Ian that brings us together.

However, this year the shitty weather and newborn babies cancelled our yearly custom (tear). But I felt that without the dose of Haapsalu 
I might not survive the upcoming winter.

it was perfect place to celebrate our day of 4-divorce-free-years.

So I packed up Fred, myself and Pebbles and spent a week in paradise.

Arriving in style during #bändisärgipäev:

The last days of bare knees:

"Yo, mom & dad. You like poo? It's in my pants:

The bliss = having a delicious breakfast...
....and watching Formula 1 (wait, what?!):

Breastfeeding at first was burden, failure and source of great worry. 
I cried and thanks to the local healthcare discourse I wanted to stop. 
Hell knows how I managed to continue. 
But here I am, finally I have found some peace with it. 
And now I actually feel a weird bond between Pebbles and me:

Formula 1 puts me on the edge on my seat:

Moms + babies = total turn off
Dads + babies = total turn on:

These legs set a "steps in one day" record:

Haapsalu riviera:

His top is autumn,
his bottom still enjoys the summer:

This little bunny knows how to chill and relax:

The house that has hole in the floor
that exposes subtle sea:

"I throw my legs up in the air sometimes saying ayo
I'm a potato":

Fred just looks at our big feet
and is terrified how Pebbles' future will look like:

To keep a man, you must be a maid in the living room, a cook in the kitchen and a whore in the bedroom.
Respect is the only rule in a relationship and nothing to do with gender:

Cha cha cha cha, choo choo train,
we need that one on the Haapsalu choo choo lane:


24/7 drive-through restaurant: 

When baby is sleeping, then parents are 
face down ass up drinking tea and playing board games:

That person who decided to put ears on baby clothes was a pure genius:

My therapist says that depression can be soothed with daily steps.
I obey:

Found this baby bunny hopping around:

Due to weather forecast I packed my wellingtons and rain gear,
however the reality was so much better:

Fred went to Tallinn office and girls were chillin' alone:

Catching that last doses of vitamin D: 

My milkshake brings all the sleep to the yard:

A baby that sleeps 12h straight during the night
and a mom that lies that sleep deprivation is the cause of her mental blankness.
The truth is that I'm just getting dumber:

It feels like I have either done some happy drug
or Haapsalu truly is a wonderland:

Just pretty:

Just tall:

One has achieved 20 000 steps,
the other one did 0 steps:

Pooper Woofer arrived to Haapsalu:

Forecast said grey.
Reality was blue:

My two yoga instructors:

Home office glamour and Zoom-Zoom-Zoom:

Ok bye, I'm moving here:

Tudikiisu Piimapuuks Pebbles:

Take your clothes off and show some skin:

Mommy daycare and Daddy spa:

No internet. No TV.
Yes books. Yes boardgames:

Then came the 1st of September, the celebrations of our private kind of happiness.

Us in 2021. Still going strong:

For the special day I showered:

The power of not cycling for more than a year + strong headwind: 

For our wedding anniversary my mom came to serve grandmother duties.

How much has Wilma changed?

In 2021 I prefer flat shoes and bras:

In 2017 the heels were high and the tits were free:

In 2017 the keyword was 'singular':

2021 is more about 'plural':

Snabba Kaninen. Kärme Küülik. Fast Rabbit:

11 years together. 4 years married. 3 months of parenthood.
Still very much in love:

Past few months, even years have felt like falling down the stairs
and now I'm slowly back on my feet:

The heir to the throne, Pebbles Circus:

Trying to spend some one-on-one time with the old man Šarik:

I see your Mediterranean Sea and Lake Como
and raise you Väike Wiik:

We prefer bed and long zzzzz:

In science we trust.
Thanks IVF. Thanks Haigekassa:

The moment I told her where babies come from:

My tremendous gratitude goes to family Müürivahe